over this year...my hair

So I was sitting here wondering what I could blog about while the baby Im watching is sleeping. Then I decided to make a yearbook of my hair. For the first 20 years of my life I had blond hair, usually long...with a few random cuts and perms that were awful in retrospect. Then came this past year.

Here is the beginning...this was what I looked like a year ago. I was showing this guy some pictures on my phone, he came to this one and really believed that this was not me.Here was my first cut...I was scared out of my mind, you never know how you are gonna pull off short hair..I was afraid I would look like a man.

I put in these random "regrowth" pictures to show what my hair looked like the few days before I went back in for the next cuts. This is Lagoon..it was hot.i was sweaty. my hair was gross.
This was the first time I really let Des have a go at my hair...I loved my bangs the most after this cut, she did exactly what I wanted.

This picture is so so sick, haha. It had been awhile since I had seen Des...enough said.
This was the same day...I wore the hat thinking it was hiding the nastiness...not so much. Oh and I really dont know what Des is doing.
This was the first time I put real color in my hair...it wasnt much but I was nervous.

This was a close up of what my bangs looked like, they were all jagged and multicolored.
Once again with the regrowth...I tend to wear it curly more...then it just looks purely ridiculous.

Totally red! I finally got down to Provo and decided to just go all the way.
This was a few days ago haha. It is such an odd color right now but I actually love it. It has grown out funny and its weird that most people have dark regrowth and I have white roots. Its like peachy red with blonde highlights.


So that is it...the result of having my best friend in hair school.

8 things because Im bored...

Rules:
1. Post rules on the blog
2. Answer the six 8 things questions
3. Tag 8 people and leave them a comment so they know

8 Favorite TV shows
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. The Office
3. Scrubs
4. Friends
5. Jon and Kate plus eight (I love all the craziness)
6. Dexter
7. What I Like About You (Amanda Bynes is pretty much my hero)
8. Reba

8 things I did yesterday
1. Slept in...this is a habit...Im working on it
2. Babysat Josie
3. Donated plasma...and made 20 big ones
4. Ate some chicken noodle soup
5. Picked Katelyn up from the dorms
6. Took Kate to Wal Mart to get some drugs
7. Watched some Greys and nursed Kate back to health (apparently it didnt work)
8. Watched The Count of Monte Cristo with a buddy

8 Things I'm looking forward to
1. Going Home!
2. My Provo anti-v-day
3. No SNOW!(this is what my cousin said...but I hate snow so I stole it)
4. Mals wedding!
5. Not being in Laramie...even though I am rather enjoying myself right now
6. Dinner...I dont look to far ahead these days haha
7. going for a nice run...im feeling frumpy so this will be nice
8. seeing everyone this weekend

8 favorite restaurants
1. Olive Garden
2. Don Pedros
3. Grandmas house
4. Applebees
5. Sanfords
6. China King Buffet (shocker I know but I love the mongolian grill)
7. Taco Time
8. Arctic Circle
( that was hard I only like a few real restaurants)

8 things I wish for
1. Everyone to be happy! ( Im like a bubble of love these days)
2. A man...
3. children of my own...after the man...way down the road...
4. some money would be nice
5. to never have to work haha
6. for my car to be paid off
7. to get to travel
8. a puppy

8 people I tag:No one in particular...whomever wants to play!

Happy Birthday Mom.

Its been five years.
Today my mom would be 48 years old.
There has been six birthdays and Christmases.
There has been three grandchildren born.
There has been three marriages.
There is step-family and dogs...and cats.

For me there was three schools, two teams and one dropout. My first kiss. My first school dance. My first apartment. and several first days of work. There was my first love...followed by my first broken heart.

In the wee hours of the morning it hit me. There are just times when it does. Ive learned its just better to let it.
I realized this morning that I miss her just as much today...actually more.
I cried the same way I cried that first day, the same helpless way I cried many days after.
The pain in my stomach, the not being able to breath, was not so bad.
I was sad, a little angry and pretty full of self pity.
I felt the same pain that I felt five and a half years ago.

...but then something amazing happened...

I felt the same love. the same peace. the same comfort that I felt five and a half years ago.
Christ knows my pain. and we are never alone. I felt the same reassurance that I did in the car to go see her...that families can be together forever. Thats the promise. Thats what really matters.

Now Im just sad to think that there are people out there
(perhaps a twenty year old girl who lost her mom five plus years ago)
that do not realize, or understand, that simple yet perfect truth.

I am blessed.

I admit it...I have neglected my blog.

So its been awhile. I realized one day that I still had Christmas songs on my blog...and some people find that annoying I guess. Then I realized it had been over two months since I had written anything, which makes me look realy boring...which I am, but lets pretend I have something interesting to say.

Heres a little catch up.

Thanksgiving was great and everyone came home...which is of course the best part.
The food was great and it was so nice taking a break from Laramie and school and all.

Christmas break was exactly what I needed. I was so ready to just be at home and have the comfort and the food that goes with it.

I do not however particularly enjoy the freezing cold airbed in my freezing cold room. My dad convinced himself that our home did not need heating and we would rely only on the wood stove this winter. good for him...bad for me.

I made some serious cash money. I was able to work at Halliburton for three weeks. I am now stocked up on money and creeper stories that will last till summer. I worked in the chem barn this time so it was kinda cool to see how a different part of it all works, this however is attached to the mechanic shop and pump shop...where my "problems" seem to work. I did get some free food and ice cream..so a girl cant complain too much.

I finally got a new phone. My old one was destroyed, so my dad hooked me up for christmas. I got lots of great presents and some much needed money. Instead of saving my money for bills like a good little poor college student, I bought the best pair of shoes...ever. Boots to be exact. They were on sale so I am justified. I love them and maybe I just needed a pair of boots to make me happy...so there.

The last week of the break I actually took a little time to have a break and quit work a week early. I did some traveling.

First I went to Alicias NEW HOUSE! It is so adorable...to bad she is lame and doesnt want to share pictures of it with everyone in a blog of her own :( There is a room just for me and my only complaint is I dont know how all my clothes and shoes are gonna fit in my closet. It looks amazing and is so fresh and clean...until Amber visited it, her kids got right to business. We mostly just hung out, we watched Bens team lose badly...which was disappointing haha. I also watched their Jr Jazz team practice...which was hilarious. They have got quite the plethora of talent, just not any in the basketball area. I had a great time, even if it was in Evanston.

Next I went down to Ambers. I started the first day off with a chemical peel at Ambers spa place, and wow that was intense. Then I got to drive Austyn home and listen to her stories. She kills me and her mom had told her she was gonna get chicken nuggets so she kept telling me we needed to go to miss wendys. While we waited for Amber in the car while she was getting her eyebrows done, Jed laughed as hard as I have seen at me and I almost died laughing at his throaty laugh. Then me and Austyn went to meet McCaden when she got home from school. McCaden recognized my car and thought it was so funny that she knew that I was inside. I fed tham oreos and old cinnamon rolls for a snack and Austyn had a black face. I finally got to see their finished basement. I think its great that both my sisters have rooms just for me...cuz they are just for me. The basement is amazing and thats where we spent most of the time. I played lots of Dr Mario and beat Josh at Dokapon Kingdom even when he cheated. Its so fun to spend time with my sisters and those kids can sure make my day...oh and Josh and Ben are alright too.
Oh yeah and my favorite thing was Austyns favorite thing to say to me....when I tried to get the girls to pick up the "holly pottits", or when I was trying to get them to settle down to sleep one night..she would say "my dad says I dont have to do what you say", and "my dad says you cant be mean to me". She is a pretty clever one.

Lastly I went to good ole Provo to visit Destry. Which brings me of course to me letting her chop off more hair and turn it RED! I love it...alot! Its so fun after being blond for 21 years to do something crazy that I have always wanted to try. We hung out with some Provo boys and she again tried everything in her power to get me to move there. She uses boys and Olive Garden and it almost works. I also got to do a little shopping and one night we played pranks on poor unsuspecting boys.

Now I am back in Laramie. I know depressing. I am not doing school this semester which is kind of...nay...very awesome. I am planning on working because I am thinking seriously about serving a mission. Its something I have been thinking about and it really feels like the right thing to do.
So I have not found a "real job" like my dad says but I am currently babysitting four days a week for two little girls. Two days is a 4 month old named Tatum and and two days is a 5 month old named Josie. They are adorable and I feel like I am ripping off the parents to get paid to play with babies. They are angels and very easy. Its the perfect job for me but I know I will have to find something less fun for the rest of the hours of the day. Today Josie laughed at me making funny faces and I was like is this seriously my job? I have also started spinning and am planning on getting serious about fitness now that I will be the maid of honor in a tiny tiny dress this summer for one of my best friends. Nothing like a little dress to scare you into getting in shape. I no longer have a roommate because she moved back home now that she is changing her school plans. Its really wierd living alone but not entirely bad. Its kind of making me feel really grown up and I never have to close the door when I pee...I know amazing right. Other than that I just hang out, I went to this amazing thrift/antiquqe store that I have always wanted to go to and realized ITS AMAZING! I found such cool things but since I dont have a big home to decorate I only bought a bunch of sweet records.

So life is laid back and pretty great right now and now that I have written a novel I guess I will get back to chillaxin. much love!

Home Alone 12

So I am home alone because my roommate abandoned me to become a groupie! Sad I know. So I already showered and danced around in my underpants...I have cleaned everything even my room which needed it very much. and I think I finally got rid of the tuna fish smell. I went shopping for eggs and milk and I went bowling for FHE. I have also listened to the first song on my blog like ten times...I am a little addicted. I even read a little of The Host which is the latest book I have decided to read..and don't worry I have not touched my homework...that's just how I roll. So now I have decided to write a blog despite the fact that I have nothing to write about..its all part of the procrastination plan.

Today I woke up feeling sick.
It could have something to do with Linds not letting me sleep all weekend but I have never been sick so much as I have been since I came to Laramie. Another reason I should move. Believe me I take any excuse I can. The cops here hate me and I never have a place to park. Its cold. There are no boys. Ok there are boys but apparently I have a sticker on my face that says "wyotecher nasties...please hit on me...I love it" Not all wyotechers are bad but surely I find the worst.

Weird fact: People named Rob love making it in my life. There have been several guys named Rob that I have met since this summer. I never knew any Robs before then. So there is Rob..older kid that made me cry...he loved my best friend and ruined a trip for me. Then there was the much loved Robifus, and by much loved I for sure mean...jerk that looked like celery. I don't know why I said celery, but I'm gonna leave it. Then most recently there was Robbie. Robbie is scary, but I gave him a chance and he was for sure a nasty. Now I hope I don't meet any more Robs because I am running out of variations of the name. I also decided with Lindsey to keep the men in my life straight I would call them. B1 B2 and B3. These are not Robs although Robbie did make it to B2. But all the B's are boys that keep texting me despite hints. I guess hints are not enough but I don't like confrontation and when I told Robifus I was not interested he gave my number out to many and called me really mean names..so now I just try to pretend that I fell of the face of the earth. I have not quite perfected this yet.

So you may be thinking...WOW...Ashlee is kind of a little brat. Maybe so...or maybe now I just know what I want.
Here is what I don't want
1. I don't want to "chill"
-B2 asks me this all the time...if you cant ask me ahead of time or ever take me on a real date...your not worth it. Once your familiar with a guy or you have mutual friends that all want to chill, then its ok. But in B2 language chill means...I want to smooch...I'm not down little buddy.

2. I don't want you to pretend that you like the same things as me.
-This was B3. Its cool if a guy doesn't like everything I do but if you say your a big fan of The Office and then when I agree to watch it with you and you don't even know the names of the characters, and ask a billion questions...well that's just stupid...don't lie.

That's actually my only complaints haha I am actually very happy with the single life. But some real dates...like where I get fed would be awesome right now. So pretty much I am just hungry I guess.

Speaking of hunger. I cannot wait until Thanksgiving! Good food is part of it but I really just need to go home and see my family. Also I need to do laundry and I have convinced myself that I can make it without doing anymore loads here. I have done two loads in the past month probably. It was my workout clothes and my favorite pants and sweaters. Don't worry its not as gross as it sounds...I just have enough clothes that I can do that..haha... so really its a good thing because those clothes that never get worn are getting a chance..I also wear my workout clothes and sweats alot.

Also speaking of hunger...I am gonna recommend a book. Its called Hunger Games by Suzzane Collins. It was really good and its really an easy quick read. and it has a sequel to follow...which I love.

Well I guess I will stop with the randomness and do my work. Much Love!

Let us lay in the sun...And count every beautiful thing we can see

~I fell of a curb the other day.
*I love singing in the shower.
~I am so so beyond homesick.
*I love Jon and Kate Plus Eight.
~Wyo-Techers worry me.
*I have this new found love for showers.(I know your all shocked)
~I would love to be brave enough to backpack across Europe.
*I dont miss him anymore but I am lonely.
~This week...I love Fun Dip.
*I can't wait to be a mom.
~I love music again.
*Spiders make me want to throw up.
~Hickys are so trashy.
*I need a vacuum.
~I can't wait till this semester of classes is over.
*I want a Beagle.
~I feel that me being lonely is just the thing for me right now. (when it comes to boys)
*I think I could live off of goldfish. (crackers)
~My favorite number is Five.
*I am in an institute class that I love love love.
~Some of my friends political views make me very sad.
*I hate the snow.
~I could handle only seeing snow on Christmas or in pictures.
*Snow is not for clumsy people.
~Sometimes people really surprise me.
*Not always for the worst.
~I love Relief Society.
*Sometimes I say other things but really..my favorite movie is Never Been Kissed.
~Im oddly embarrassed by that.
*I was sweet sixteen and never been kissed.
~I want to work for a school because I have decided I need summers off.
*I love The Carpenters because they remind me of my mom.
~I love Air Supply because they remind me of my dad. (dont ask me why)
*Sometimes I like to imagine what the soundtrack to my life would sound like at any given time.
~When I have trouble sleeping and decide to count sheep, I always see scurrying lizards.
*I have never told anyone that because its so oddly weird.
~I think Mean Girls is a great movie.
*I love shoes, a little to much.
~I love purses, alot to much.
*I need to find a tall guy because I look good in high heels.
~I named my car Creature.
*I can't wait for Twilight to come out.
~Some days I just want a sugar daddy.(candy and/or man)
*I love stretching in the morning...but it seems I only get to enjoy it on lazy days.
~Chocolate milk can instantly make my day a little better.
*I honestly think that my brothers and sister in law are the luckiest people.
~Thats my true feelings of my siblings, though I don't always tell them.
*I dont think I have ever worried or cared about another person more than my little brother.

...so I was thinking about how great life is...the good the bad and the weird. Its just one of those weird nights where I cant sleep. So I just started typing what ever came to mind. It was kinda fun to see what I thought of.

...And to end this I must say...Alicia I am cutting you off if you dont get your own blog!

VERY SCARY

So I all the sudden on Friday got really excited for Halloween...so we went to the thrift store and made some B.A. outfits. Honestly if I could dress like this everyday and not have to explain myself..I totally would! I love random clothes...big hair...and fun makeup...there was not really much to do since we dont drink and generally are not sluts...but we still had an alright time..and besides getting ready is half the fun! So here are the only pictures we actually got from the night...mostly from the institute dance. I also love Halloween because everyone with little kids puts pictures up of the cutest costumes ever...my favorite picture so far is probably of Austyn my second neice being a cute little cat...the leotard...so cute Amber! 80's Rock Band...She's the Business...Im the Party!

Linds gettin down with her bad self

I make this pose alot and I dont really kow why...its sick really...but I am tough

This is just sick...gotta love dancin and takin pictures of yourself

Thug for life...like I said I am tough

For sure this is my favorite picture of the night...classic linds

Katelyn had us do her hair and makeup...and then ditched us for her boy...classic Katelyn

Lindsey has the straightest hair ever...she did not believe that I could make it 80's..I showed her

I make faces....

...alot


So that is it...I know we are not as cute as all the babies...but we sure do try to give them a run for their money!