Home Alone 12

So I am home alone because my roommate abandoned me to become a groupie! Sad I know. So I already showered and danced around in my underpants...I have cleaned everything even my room which needed it very much. and I think I finally got rid of the tuna fish smell. I went shopping for eggs and milk and I went bowling for FHE. I have also listened to the first song on my blog like ten times...I am a little addicted. I even read a little of The Host which is the latest book I have decided to read..and don't worry I have not touched my homework...that's just how I roll. So now I have decided to write a blog despite the fact that I have nothing to write about..its all part of the procrastination plan.

Today I woke up feeling sick.
It could have something to do with Linds not letting me sleep all weekend but I have never been sick so much as I have been since I came to Laramie. Another reason I should move. Believe me I take any excuse I can. The cops here hate me and I never have a place to park. Its cold. There are no boys. Ok there are boys but apparently I have a sticker on my face that says "wyotecher nasties...please hit on me...I love it" Not all wyotechers are bad but surely I find the worst.

Weird fact: People named Rob love making it in my life. There have been several guys named Rob that I have met since this summer. I never knew any Robs before then. So there is Rob..older kid that made me cry...he loved my best friend and ruined a trip for me. Then there was the much loved Robifus, and by much loved I for sure mean...jerk that looked like celery. I don't know why I said celery, but I'm gonna leave it. Then most recently there was Robbie. Robbie is scary, but I gave him a chance and he was for sure a nasty. Now I hope I don't meet any more Robs because I am running out of variations of the name. I also decided with Lindsey to keep the men in my life straight I would call them. B1 B2 and B3. These are not Robs although Robbie did make it to B2. But all the B's are boys that keep texting me despite hints. I guess hints are not enough but I don't like confrontation and when I told Robifus I was not interested he gave my number out to many and called me really mean names..so now I just try to pretend that I fell of the face of the earth. I have not quite perfected this yet.

So you may be thinking...WOW...Ashlee is kind of a little brat. Maybe so...or maybe now I just know what I want.
Here is what I don't want
1. I don't want to "chill"
-B2 asks me this all the time...if you cant ask me ahead of time or ever take me on a real date...your not worth it. Once your familiar with a guy or you have mutual friends that all want to chill, then its ok. But in B2 language chill means...I want to smooch...I'm not down little buddy.

2. I don't want you to pretend that you like the same things as me.
-This was B3. Its cool if a guy doesn't like everything I do but if you say your a big fan of The Office and then when I agree to watch it with you and you don't even know the names of the characters, and ask a billion questions...well that's just stupid...don't lie.

That's actually my only complaints haha I am actually very happy with the single life. But some real dates...like where I get fed would be awesome right now. So pretty much I am just hungry I guess.

Speaking of hunger. I cannot wait until Thanksgiving! Good food is part of it but I really just need to go home and see my family. Also I need to do laundry and I have convinced myself that I can make it without doing anymore loads here. I have done two loads in the past month probably. It was my workout clothes and my favorite pants and sweaters. Don't worry its not as gross as it sounds...I just have enough clothes that I can do that..haha... so really its a good thing because those clothes that never get worn are getting a chance..I also wear my workout clothes and sweats alot.

Also speaking of hunger...I am gonna recommend a book. Its called Hunger Games by Suzzane Collins. It was really good and its really an easy quick read. and it has a sequel to follow...which I love.

Well I guess I will stop with the randomness and do my work. Much Love!

Let us lay in the sun...And count every beautiful thing we can see

~I fell of a curb the other day.
*I love singing in the shower.
~I am so so beyond homesick.
*I love Jon and Kate Plus Eight.
~Wyo-Techers worry me.
*I have this new found love for showers.(I know your all shocked)
~I would love to be brave enough to backpack across Europe.
*I dont miss him anymore but I am lonely.
~This week...I love Fun Dip.
*I can't wait to be a mom.
~I love music again.
*Spiders make me want to throw up.
~Hickys are so trashy.
*I need a vacuum.
~I can't wait till this semester of classes is over.
*I want a Beagle.
~I feel that me being lonely is just the thing for me right now. (when it comes to boys)
*I think I could live off of goldfish. (crackers)
~My favorite number is Five.
*I am in an institute class that I love love love.
~Some of my friends political views make me very sad.
*I hate the snow.
~I could handle only seeing snow on Christmas or in pictures.
*Snow is not for clumsy people.
~Sometimes people really surprise me.
*Not always for the worst.
~I love Relief Society.
*Sometimes I say other things but really..my favorite movie is Never Been Kissed.
~Im oddly embarrassed by that.
*I was sweet sixteen and never been kissed.
~I want to work for a school because I have decided I need summers off.
*I love The Carpenters because they remind me of my mom.
~I love Air Supply because they remind me of my dad. (dont ask me why)
*Sometimes I like to imagine what the soundtrack to my life would sound like at any given time.
~When I have trouble sleeping and decide to count sheep, I always see scurrying lizards.
*I have never told anyone that because its so oddly weird.
~I think Mean Girls is a great movie.
*I love shoes, a little to much.
~I love purses, alot to much.
*I need to find a tall guy because I look good in high heels.
~I named my car Creature.
*I can't wait for Twilight to come out.
~Some days I just want a sugar daddy.(candy and/or man)
*I love stretching in the morning...but it seems I only get to enjoy it on lazy days.
~Chocolate milk can instantly make my day a little better.
*I honestly think that my brothers and sister in law are the luckiest people.
~Thats my true feelings of my siblings, though I don't always tell them.
*I dont think I have ever worried or cared about another person more than my little brother.

...so I was thinking about how great life is...the good the bad and the weird. Its just one of those weird nights where I cant sleep. So I just started typing what ever came to mind. It was kinda fun to see what I thought of.

...And to end this I must say...Alicia I am cutting you off if you dont get your own blog!

VERY SCARY

So I all the sudden on Friday got really excited for Halloween...so we went to the thrift store and made some B.A. outfits. Honestly if I could dress like this everyday and not have to explain myself..I totally would! I love random clothes...big hair...and fun makeup...there was not really much to do since we dont drink and generally are not sluts...but we still had an alright time..and besides getting ready is half the fun! So here are the only pictures we actually got from the night...mostly from the institute dance. I also love Halloween because everyone with little kids puts pictures up of the cutest costumes ever...my favorite picture so far is probably of Austyn my second neice being a cute little cat...the leotard...so cute Amber! 80's Rock Band...She's the Business...Im the Party!

Linds gettin down with her bad self

I make this pose alot and I dont really kow why...its sick really...but I am tough

This is just sick...gotta love dancin and takin pictures of yourself

Thug for life...like I said I am tough

For sure this is my favorite picture of the night...classic linds

Katelyn had us do her hair and makeup...and then ditched us for her boy...classic Katelyn

Lindsey has the straightest hair ever...she did not believe that I could make it 80's..I showed her

I make faces....

...alot


So that is it...I know we are not as cute as all the babies...but we sure do try to give them a run for their money!

My Weekend

So this is the first time I have put pictures in a post and to make a long story short...I am getting so angry....so this is all. This is what happens on a bored saturday in Laramie.


Were so scary

Katelyn bein her nasty self

BRRR....

Lindsey before

she robbed the

store

Our flower pictures....we are so pretty

Here is the start of the epic night

and here is the end.....

why HELLO there!

HI HI HI. ok so its been a long time since I posted so I figured I should give my millions of readers a little treat! (and by million I mean like five)


SO today, just for fun, I will start out with my favorite lines...they are from songs I am loving right now...and they make me quite happy! I am kind of a dork...but hey you all probably already know that.

The first one is my favorite line from a song maybe ever...

its Katy Perry..Ur So Gay

"your so sad...maybe you should buy a happy meal
your so skinny...you should really supersize the deal"

...doesnt matter how many times I hear it, it makes me laugh every time. and its not just cuz the whole song is kinda bashing a guy...it really is such a funny line.

Then on a more loving note...there is this...

"and I can't believe...that I'm your man
and I get to kiss you...baby just because I can"

it is from my future husbands (Michael Buble) bestest song...Everything...if you have not heard it, get on it. Its so cute!

That is all I will do for now, but I could quote word for word like four Katy Perry songs that I love right now and I trippin love my Michael cd's and my new Jason Mraz one. Oh and awesome news..I found all the Jack Johnson albums on record...I could not afford them all but I did buy my favorite, In Between Dreams!

and on to other news....

School is super lame right now...I really hate writing papers and my one teacher is killing me with papers. BUT I am having a good attitude and making myself happy even though I dont like it right now!

I am also super free for dates...so if anyone has some suggestions...I think the way for me is blind dating because I am really really bad at meeting guys...7th grade awkwardness has seemed to come back to me, and I get really nervous, so actually maybe I should go with arranged marriage. That would probably be even better for me. So anyone know of any mail order groom companies? Thanks for your cooperation.

There really is not much else to talk about. I hang out at my apartment with Lindsey. Eat, sometimes sleep, sometimes work out, rarely do homework, and read...but only books that are NOT for English. We do keep a clean apartment and every once in a while we cook...and by that I mean like tacos and I cut up grapefruit...thats about as much effort as I put into it. We also watch our shows like there is no tomorrow. We love Ellen, Greys Anatomy(trippin get it together Mer and Der), The Office(yay Pam and Jim),Private Practice, The Big Bang Theory, Pushing Daisies, The Hills(ugh Spencer is creepy)...well I hate it but I still must watch it, and we recently had a mega Degrassi marathon. It fills our lives...haha and I just realized I need to get a real job and put my time to use...cuz I have a pretend job where I donate plasma and uh save lives or something.

Well that is pretty much it. I miss my family and I really want to see the little ones soon! I miss Halliburtons wonderful money! I am single and ready to mingle haha and I have no idea whats truly going on in the election...but LIFE IS GOOD!

I LOVE YOU MOM

Ok so I know its a little late(I was gonna do this on the 7th which is the 5th anniversary of my moms death) ...but in memory of my mom I am gonna write something that I wrote in my journal like a month ago while I was at work and had nothing to do all day. I wrote something about each member of my family but I am only gonna share what I wrote about my mom.

This is it...

--- My mom is the greatest example of a great mother. She was not perfect and not always patient or completely sane but she worked at it everyday. She loves each of us for different reasons and qualities (of course I am loved most) -BTW-Rex(funny guy I work with) and I were looking up the meanings of names on the internet, on this specific sight her name-Barbara-meant "strange" -I laughed and found it so perfect. I think that anyone that knew her well can totally relate... especially if they knew her when she was tired late into the night. When looking at my sisters and I this is where I see her in us the most. We are a riot late at night and usually we just seem really wierd and most people dont understand us or look at us funny, but it all makes sense to us. I think we all remember different things and alot the same of her but for me, the times I love to remember the most are those times when my mom was doing her little cackle thing and saying or doing something so off the wall and my dad would just look at her with that face and say "Barbara, I think you need to go to bed"

• So it was just a little silly thing I did, but I have been thinking about her so much lately and so I wanted to do something in rememberance. I truly find it hard to believe that it has been five years sometimes it feels like its been way longer since I have seen her but sometimes the pain of losing her feels like its brand new.

I do have some things to be thankful for though...in spite of how much I miss her and how unfair I sometimes think it is. I have the greatest family EVER! We have such a bond that became so strong when we faced one of the hardest things we ever will TOGETHER! For me my dad was never really the one I went to talk to, he is a pretty quiet guy and I guess it could have just been the age I was at or maybe I really just had a hard time opening up to him...but after losing my mom, I realized how amazing my dad really was. NO one messes with my dad and makes it out with me on their side. I am the only one that is ever more right than my dad and that is just how it is. So I guess even though it has been hard lately without her... I know that I will see her again and I always have my amazing family to help me until that time.

What makes you think I care...

Ok so I know I may just need an AA....as Alicia so kindly told me yesterday. But I am totally worn out from the stupid fair and work ( Ok I loved the fair but it made for no sleeping time). So here is my warning that this could be a bitter and obnoxoius post.

I am at this very moment trying my very hardest to ignore the new guy at work. He however despite my best efforts of typing this blog and trying to give him next to nothing in response...will not stop telling me his life story. He says he was raised in Beverly Hills but I have never met such white trash...ok maybe I have since I started working here...but he definitely makes it in the top ten. I have hardly been listening but I did just here stuff about a girl and something about boobs and a 95 year old man smoking weed. I have only nodded my head a few times and said eww. wow. geez. and "oh yeah livin the dream"(this is my very favorite phrase lately especially when talking about HALLIBURTON) Now he just told me he shot four people in the right shoulder...all in the right shoulder. Then he asks me a question and I give him an answer. Then he talks for another twenty minutes.

Does he not understand that this is my time to waste at work and I do not want him bothering me?? Really!?!

Also he has been here a day and has been calling me darlin and pretty..."I HAVE A NAME"...now this does not bother me when it is Rexifux calling me this cuz I happen to like Rex and he is like my crazy cool uncle type guy. When you are maybe a few years older then me....weigh 70 pounds less then me...and are just plain creepy...you dont get to call me Darlin!

This may sound like an adventure to some of you...like one of those horrible days you get every once in awhile...but let me just tell you this has been my life everyday for my whole summer. Nasty guys wanting my number, begging to take me out, then calling me mean names...which is often followed by them hatefully giving my number to the next guy in line. I dont want to get to know them. I dont care that they think I am pretty. I am here for money. And frankly besides my dad, my grandpas, some uncles and sometimes my brothers and cousins...boys are STUPID! In every sense of the word. I know one day someone will bring this to me and say "hey dont you remember...boys are stupid" that is ok I will eat my words...but I will say them now...with relish!

SO all I want to say to boys from now on is...

"What makes you think I care...."

Worldly Things I LOVE...that I hope are in heaven!

1. NERDS...put them in a mug and I will eat them continuously...but I hate eating them out of the box!

2. SHOES...any kind really...I love tennies...converse,vans...any kind of cutsie flat...flip flops...slippers...shoes are so my weakness!

3. GOOD MUSIC...anything that can really get me going I will listen to over and over and over to!

4. CHEESECAKE...my boss guy made me some raspberry cheesecake today so its on my mind...I LOVE raspberry cheesecake!

5. SOFT BLANKETS...my softest one does not cover me...it is bunched at my head!

6. PICKLES...enough said!

7. LOVE SACS...the most bestest thing to ever sit or lay or drown in!

8. CHOCOLATE MILK...it has to be the good kind that comes from those gallons...they are cheap and the best tasting...yuck to Nesquik and Ovaltine junk!

9. SWEATERS/JACKETS...you know the cute ones with cute buttons...and racer jackets...they make every outfit better(these however might not be needed in heaven because in my ideal heaven it will be 78 degrees all the time)!

10. TWEEZERS...because goodness my face looks nasty nast when I don't pluck!

All Work and No Play makes for an annoyed Ashlee!

So, for the past month or so I have been working for a company called Halliburton...if you have not at least heard the name you probably don't get out much...but if you know what it is they truly do then you deserve a pat on the back. cuz I sure as heck didn't when I signed myself up for the torture. Don't get me wrong sometimes its fun to sit at work and chill on the computer...like I am now. Or even watch a full season of Greys Anatomy..like I did last time I worked graves for 11 straight days. The problem is when there is work I am the only competent one here to do it. Sometime in the next few days I will give the cast listing of the sandplant...yes they are like characters, which is why my bestie Destry(she also works here) and I are seriously contemplating making a show loosely like The Office (which we love love)...called The Sand Box. So my job pretty much entails a whole plethora of duties. I do sand sieves-where I take a sample of sand from each truck and put them in shaking machines in sieves(frisbee shaped strainers) and then I weigh the sand from each sieve and make it equal a certain...might I add impossible combination of numbers. Therefore I am very good at making up a bunch of numbers to make it equal what it is supposed to, because if it doesn't then you start all over. It's loud, it gets your hands greasy and oh yeah there is sand everywhere. Destry and I are very efficient at "creating " these sieves because no one else will do them. I also make packets...3 for each stage. None of the guys can do them right so I would rather just do them to begin with(this cuts out alot of time and annoyance). There is 3 packets for each stage. About 20 -25 stages per job. About 3 jobs every 3 days for different companies and anywhere from 6-50 pages in each packet, depending on the company it is for. So I kill a tree ,and all the animals that lived near it, every day at my job. It makes me feel really good about my life. Then there is truck loading and train moving. I do these less because if I leave the office area every guy runs around screwing things up and then I have to fix it which makes them angry because I am new and of course guys don't make mistakes. You have to climb on top of semis and from the silo and load the truck with sand...then do all the weight stuff and then press the green light for the trucks to exit the silo. I did this in the beginning a few times but now I rarely leave the office. I have spotted rail cars a few times and this is just me talking into a walkie talkie saying how far the shuttle wagon driver needs to go before the rail car is above the big hole where the belt to the silo begins. Then you open the compartment door and the sand falls on to the belt and goes up the silo. This is an ok job but kinda pointless when they make me do it just because they think I should learn. SO that is a few of my jobs and now that I remembered that I have this blog and it gives me something to do when its slow or I just don't want to do packets there is much more to follow. Now I must do 3 more packets and then I am out of here till 530 am tomorrow...where it all begins again. Tune in tomorrow for more sand tales.


ps.. Des is competent...she would be upset if I did not clarify that. haha

Graduation Nation!!!

So I am graduating in one day....can you believe it? I am not that excited because its not like I am even close to being done but still I do feel pretty good about myself and my ability to actually focus on something long enough to finish and get a diploma. So I am recieving my Associate of Arts in Psychology and now I am have 33 credits to go before I get my bachelor degree. Pretty sweet huh?! I love love Psychology and there is no doubt in my mind that I want to do something that has to do with it. I am one of those freaks that has known generally what she has wanted to do since...forever. Well not quite but ever since I was a sophomore the idea of being a social worker or counselor has been all I could imagine myself doing. My family all thinks I am a little crazy because I want to do things that would be very depressing for the most part, but I love it...I have been in those depressing times and besides family and friends there are few poeple that can be of any help. However this counselor in my school had a grief group going and pushed me to come, she knew just what I needed. I would love to do something like that...help people deal with life...because I can tell them that it is possible. So that is it....well that, and I love diagnosing everyone with any kind of personality disorder or anything else I am learning at the moment. Really I just love to learn why people act the way they do, it helps keep me grounded and help me be more understanding.